Hate my parents.

I really do hate my parents.
My mom and dad. Seriously. And my Grandma

My dad always make empty promises. Never ever he fulfill what he said to me.
- Wanted to buy me a new electone since last year.
- Wanted to buy me a new pc since last year
- Wanted to buy me a new drumset
- Wanted to bring us on holiday
etc..
Bla bla bla. He never did any of these. These more still but cant really remember all the small little things. And yet, sometimes i said i 'FORGOT' to do his stuffs, he will show me that angry face and raise his voice at me. What la. He never gave me what i want and i must fulfill what he wants?

Just like yesterday. He called a chef back. He called his friends over to eat. HIS FRIENDS RIGHT? And i have to serve them. Fine. Serve then serve. But yet, I couldnt have a nice dinner. After im done working, the food will surely be finished up. Fine. Have to wait for another food to be served. Okay. I finally got some food, but then im not full. When i want to get somemore, finished again. What la. He never even think of us. If we didnt take the food before it was served, we surely cant eat it at all. After those few dishes, me and my sis are not full at all. And then, my dad called us to go buy some ice for him. Cant he go buy himself? We're like his servant. And then on the way back we ended up buying domino's for ourselves.

And somemore he doesnt give me my allowance monthly. Its always like I have to go to his wallet and take it for myself. If theres money then im lucky. If theres no money then im going to school without money. Crap right? So sorry for those if i still owe you money or i have to borrow money from you. And when comes to fees, i have to ask it from him. He always says no money no money. Fine. then the fees will be dragged and taken over to the next month. And then the next month when i ask money from him, he'll go 'WHY SO EXPENSIVE? WHY DIDNT YOU ASK FROM ME LAST MONTH?' What la. Bloody hell. Then when i started explaining, he thinks im giving excuses.

My mom also another one.
Shes really really thinking too much. Sometimes even talking to herself. She always thinks shes right and im wrong. And also always messing up my time. Sometimes i really want to do something else but yet she insist me of doing another thing.

Bla bla bla. And recently shes telling me how bad my grandma and aunt used to treat her and stuffs. If she really want to tell then tell someone else la. She came and tell HER OWN children. What will the children think? Do you think theres still a happy family there? I dont think so. And my mom complaints about my dad to us.

My grandma. A serious factor.
So grumpy always. Calling you to do this and do that. Whenever not done properly then she complaints. And when she complaints you cannot talk back. If you talk back she'll tell my dad and my dad comes and scold me. For serious shit, who she think she is? The Queen? With her smelly breathe and her face always so black. Whenever you dont call her when you see her also will kena. Always complaint about the maid showing her black face. She should look into the mirror and see. See who's face is blacker. And sometimes she dont see the maid around, she complaints that the maid is not doing her work, being lazy bla bla bla. Just that she's upstairs washing the toilet and stuff. And because of her, the whole house is unhappy.


I swear that i'll never treat my kids how they treated me.

Urghh. my mom always likes to screw things up.
She dont even understands me and yet she wants to control me. -.-

My mom never understands me. -.-

Decided to give up. Im jealous. Why dont i get what i want?
No point trying anymore. What fucking thing did i do wrong?
Makes me feel more sad every single day. All i see is people get what they want and i dont. Fuck you.

Sighh

Sad.

Should I?

Help me decide.
Not telling you what it is.
But should I?
Poll at the right side.

Do you know how it feels like to smile when deep inside your heart is sad?
Its like a smile that you rather not want to smile. Its like forcing yourself to smile.
A forced smile will never be as sweet as a true smile from your heart.
Open up your heart. Dont let anything bug you.
Always be happy.
Do you know how it feels to know the hurtful truth of a sweet lie?
Everything goes so sweet and nice and then someone breaks it by telling you the truth.
And you might hate the person that told you the truth.
Accept the truth and forgive the lie.
The truth is something you should know and the lie is just to make you happy.
Do you know how it feels when you are so unlucky for the whole day?
Anything that you do or wish for will never go your way.
Everything you do will be screwed up in the end and you get nothing.
You maybe unlucky for that day but always remember 'A better tomorrow'
Make a change for tomorrow.
Do you know how it feels when you're being lonely?
They seems to be people around but but they just seem like strangers to you.
Whatever you do they wont bother about you.
Dont make yourself feel lonely. Go out there and be wild.
Dont be afraid to join others.

It always suck when bad things happen. I just wish that bad things just go away. AWAY. Maybe its my fault that bad things are happeneing to me. Maybe. Sigh.


FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
GET OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE.
GO SCREW SOMEONE ELSES LIFE.


Okay fine. Maybe im just really going through a really unlucky period. Things never been my way since then. How nice if i could go back into the past where everything is free from all these pain.

Friends are someone you can really count on. They give you excitement, fun and joy. Sometimes they even help you when you're down.

The fact is, I have a bunch a friends that are really really cool and awesome. Okay fine. SOME friends. But still, without them my life would be empty.

Friends could sometimes cause problem. Problems that may even destroy your friendship between them. Do not try and do such things because in the end, you'll suffer the most.

Always keep your friendship. Never destroy it. Once the friendship has been destroyed, there remains a scar. A scar that will never go off. A scar that will always be remembered.

Gahh. No idea what im blogging right now. Just wanted to update something.

Another day.

Sigh. Trials are coming.
I really missed you.
Sejarah is making my head burst.
Your absence makes me worry
Other sbujects to come.
Worrying that will you be alright
Stress Stress Stress!!
Hope you get well soon
Nothing better to blog.
Seeing you everyday makes me happy
Having my basketball match tomorrow.
Hope you do well for your trials
Wish me luck. =)
I'll always wish you luck.