Saturday, November 28, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Unbreak my heart
and it makes me feel so wrong to love you.
or is it just that choosing a wrong path?
Im trying real hard just that i cant do anything.
Its like a permanent marker written in my heart.
This is something i might want you to see
but i dont think you will ever see it.
Its written somewhere in this post.
This is something tha i will never have the guts to say to you.
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Friday, October 16, 2009
Miracles?
I thought that miracles would happen but it doesnt seem to work for me. The fact is, i dont believe it. And now i know that miracles does not exist, i shall move on.
I cannot stand the way i am right now. I need to change back my life. The only way to change it is to move on. Without moving on, i'll be stuck on the same pace forever and never look forward. I guess its the end, and time for me to let go.
I might say that i will let you go but in my mind theres always you inside somewhere. Almost every night i sleep i think of you. And sometimes it made me couldnt sleep. This is suffering. I dont want to suffer in this way. So its time for me to delete you from my mind. Hoping that i can format my mind.
And yes i might be childish for doing those stuffs and i would like to say sorry if i caused any problems. And for now, its time for me to leave the arena.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Hate my parents.
My mom and dad. Seriously. And my Grandma
My dad always make empty promises. Never ever he fulfill what he said to me.
- Wanted to buy me a new electone since last year.
- Wanted to buy me a new pc since last year
- Wanted to buy me a new drumset
- Wanted to bring us on holiday
etc..
Bla bla bla. He never did any of these. These more still but cant really remember all the small little things. And yet, sometimes i said i 'FORGOT' to do his stuffs, he will show me that angry face and raise his voice at me. What la. He never gave me what i want and i must fulfill what he wants?
Just like yesterday. He called a chef back. He called his friends over to eat. HIS FRIENDS RIGHT? And i have to serve them. Fine. Serve then serve. But yet, I couldnt have a nice dinner. After im done working, the food will surely be finished up. Fine. Have to wait for another food to be served. Okay. I finally got some food, but then im not full. When i want to get somemore, finished again. What la. He never even think of us. If we didnt take the food before it was served, we surely cant eat it at all. After those few dishes, me and my sis are not full at all. And then, my dad called us to go buy some ice for him. Cant he go buy himself? We're like his servant. And then on the way back we ended up buying domino's for ourselves.
And somemore he doesnt give me my allowance monthly. Its always like I have to go to his wallet and take it for myself. If theres money then im lucky. If theres no money then im going to school without money. Crap right? So sorry for those if i still owe you money or i have to borrow money from you. And when comes to fees, i have to ask it from him. He always says no money no money. Fine. then the fees will be dragged and taken over to the next month. And then the next month when i ask money from him, he'll go 'WHY SO EXPENSIVE? WHY DIDNT YOU ASK FROM ME LAST MONTH?' What la. Bloody hell. Then when i started explaining, he thinks im giving excuses.
My mom also another one.
Shes really really thinking too much. Sometimes even talking to herself. She always thinks shes right and im wrong. And also always messing up my time. Sometimes i really want to do something else but yet she insist me of doing another thing.
Bla bla bla. And recently shes telling me how bad my grandma and aunt used to treat her and stuffs. If she really want to tell then tell someone else la. She came and tell HER OWN children. What will the children think? Do you think theres still a happy family there? I dont think so. And my mom complaints about my dad to us.
My grandma. A serious factor.
So grumpy always. Calling you to do this and do that. Whenever not done properly then she complaints. And when she complaints you cannot talk back. If you talk back she'll tell my dad and my dad comes and scold me. For serious shit, who she think she is? The Queen? With her smelly breathe and her face always so black. Whenever you dont call her when you see her also will kena. Always complaint about the maid showing her black face. She should look into the mirror and see. See who's face is blacker. And sometimes she dont see the maid around, she complaints that the maid is not doing her work, being lazy bla bla bla. Just that she's upstairs washing the toilet and stuff. And because of her, the whole house is unhappy.
I swear that i'll never treat my kids how they treated me.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Its like a smile that you rather not want to smile. Its like forcing yourself to smile.
A forced smile will never be as sweet as a true smile from your heart.
Open up your heart. Dont let anything bug you.
Always be happy.
Do you know how it feels to know the hurtful truth of a sweet lie?
Everything goes so sweet and nice and then someone breaks it by telling you the truth.
And you might hate the person that told you the truth.
Accept the truth and forgive the lie.
The truth is something you should know and the lie is just to make you happy.
Do you know how it feels when you are so unlucky for the whole day?
Anything that you do or wish for will never go your way.
Everything you do will be screwed up in the end and you get nothing.
You maybe unlucky for that day but always remember 'A better tomorrow'
Make a change for tomorrow.
Do you know how it feels when you're being lonely?
They seems to be people around but but they just seem like strangers to you.
Whatever you do they wont bother about you.
Dont make yourself feel lonely. Go out there and be wild.
Dont be afraid to join others.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU?
GET OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE.
GO SCREW SOMEONE ELSES LIFE.
Okay fine. Maybe im just really going through a really unlucky period. Things never been my way since then. How nice if i could go back into the past where everything is free from all these pain.
Monday, July 27, 2009
The fact is, I have a bunch a friends that are really really cool and awesome. Okay fine. SOME friends. But still, without them my life would be empty.
Friends could sometimes cause problem. Problems that may even destroy your friendship between them. Do not try and do such things because in the end, you'll suffer the most.
Always keep your friendship. Never destroy it. Once the friendship has been destroyed, there remains a scar. A scar that will never go off. A scar that will always be remembered.
Gahh. No idea what im blogging right now. Just wanted to update something.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Another day.
I really missed you.
Sejarah is making my head burst.
Your absence makes me worry
Other sbujects to come.
Worrying that will you be alright
Stress Stress Stress!!
Hope you get well soon
Nothing better to blog.
Seeing you everyday makes me happy
Having my basketball match tomorrow.
Hope you do well for your trials
Wish me luck. =)
I'll always wish you luck.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Lalalalala
On 17 March 2009, I had a exam, electone exam to be precise. So yeah. my hard work has been paid off. Woohooo. Im done with grade 8. =)
Grade 8.. Think its a high grade?
Think again.
Yamaha grades are kinda funny. Instead of starting of from grade 1, they start from grade 13.
So basically I got my grade 6 cert and taking grade 7 now. =)
And now, homework time always makes me sleepy but not when my camera is right in front of me. Haha.
Anyway its just some random pictures. =)
Doing my BM homework. =D
And while I was doing my work,
Something came in front of me...
THIS tempting mee here just made me hard to concerntrate to continue my work.
So yeah. And in another 5 minutes...
THIS HAPPENED.
Alright. To all the form 3 guys of Sri KDU, have you ever wonder why the guys toilet at the second floor is always out of toilet paper? Someone stole it? The school has not enough money to buy toilet papers? I'll tell you why. Just watch this video and you'll understand why. =)
THERE.
There goes our trees. WASTED. OMG. Wait. i was 1 of them too. Hahahah. Oh well, its already done right? haha. =)
And lastly, EUNICEEE, i told you i found my pics. =D
PROVE! Evidence!
-End
Another post inspired by Mae Jeen.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Semester 2!
Maths - A
Science - A
Geography - A
KH - A
Moral - B
and the rest...
Chinese - C
BM - C
SEJARAH - C
Anyway, first week of school.. Nothing much happened. Ken and Oscar were absent today. Maybe they did something together last night? haha. And SHIT SHIT. I need picturesss. My blog is so so so so so boring. Crap. Shit my camera. Argh. =( And i need to change the layout. Kinda bored of it. Sigh
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Holidays are Over!!
Back to school tomorrow.
Arhhh!! Exam paperss!!!
I wanna die now.
Die Die Die Die Die.
Lets see...
We have:
Science
Maths
Mandarin
KH
Geography
and not to mention...
Moral
Alright. Time to sleep. Need to wake up early tomorrow. Hah. Night all.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
I Need To Sleep EARLY
Well, Holidays are seriously boring. Im like surfing into everyones blog every hour. Gosh, can you guys like update your blogs more frequent? Haha. Lifeless and bored people like me will always surf your blog and find for updates. If there are no updates, then i pity your cbox then. =)
Okay. My blog needs more pictures. Its kinda boring reading like this. And im gonna change the layout soon. Geez, I wonder if anyone reads my blog. Maybe I should stop blogging. Sigh
Thats it. Good night ya'all. =)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
4 More Days!
Anyway, it rained so so so damn bloody heavy today. Got myself wet just now. The lightnings are Scarrryyy. Haha. But thinking twice, lightning is a source of electricity. Why are electricity dangerous? I know it kills people but what makes it kill people, how? People say that the electricity can just shock through your body. The question is, HOW?
Okay I know its a silly question. Im just too bored.
Going for dinner later, its my grandma's birthday today. Her 86th birthday. Im just thinking how is she gonna blow all 14 candles out in one breath. Just imagine, if we put 86 candles on the cake. Haha. Already 86 years, and she gets 86 candles. Every year, you get another candle on your cake, its like you're growing older. Never to go back. Sigh.
I still miss her. =(
If you give up from the start, you're a failure.
If you continue going for what you wanted knowing that you wont get it, that's your determination.
If you continue chasing your dreams and getting what you always wanted, you're successful.
Friday, June 5, 2009
What thing is it? Im not gonna say.
It's always bugging me.
How should I face it?
I feel so lonely.
No one could help me.
The lonliness is stuck with me.
People say dying wont solve a problem at all.
I wonder how is the feeling of dying.
If dying wont solve a problem,
then why are there so many people suiciding?
And when people say suicide wont solve a problem,
They are not the ones who are suiciding.
How would they know that suicide wont solve anything?
Okay, I wont be that stupid to suicide.
Just wondering how will it feel.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Code
I dont know why. Dont ask.
Just fuck that feeling in my heart now.
So confused. So lost.
Fuck this shit.
I want to be someone free.
Free like a bird.
Flies anywhere it wants.
Unlike my fucking life right now.
I feel so screwed up.
Never been so lost.
Lost in a deep jungle.
Never to be found.
I shall wait then.
Until the day comes.
Or maybe it wont come.
But i'll still be waiting.
Waiting for you to come.
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Monday, May 25, 2009
Exaammmmssss!!
Yeap. Like I said, Night at the Museum 2.
Alright. Time for bed right now. Next update will be after Mid-years. Tata.
Another post inspired by Mae Jeen.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Taggg
All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.
Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head.
And then answer the questions,
Say you're guessing if you don't know,but at least guess on all of them.
After doing this, tag your 21 "lucky" friends to do the same
2. Chee Fong
3. Gerrick Ho
4. Ken Tain
5. Calista Tee
6. Li Chi
7. Andrew
8. Pheobe
9. Pei Shin
10. Ben-Samuel
11.Sue May
12. Tracy
13. Hon Wye
14.Yik Choon
15. Vincent
16. Melvin
17. Anderson
18. Tiffany
19. Shi Hao
20. Tag
21. Alcent
1. How did you meet 7?
Classmate since 2007. Used to hate him. =D [Andrew]
2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
Recruit another teammate. [Vincent]
3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
Laughing stock of the whole world. haha. [Kun Shen & Tag]
4. Have you seen 17 cried?
No. But i want to. =) [Anderson]
5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
Maybe? They should give it a try. =p [Ken Tain & Melvin]
6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
Not bad la. =) [Sue May]
7. What is 2's favourite colour?
I dont know but i can assure its not brown nor black. =) [Chee Fong]
8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
Yesterday in class [Pei Shin]
9. What language does 8 speaks?
The language that you can understand. [Pheobe]
10. Who is 13 going out with?
Sue Ling? Taylor Swift? [Hon Wye]
11. Would you ever date 17 ?
Sorry, not attracted to him. =D [Anderson]
12. Where does 18 live?
Someone in Selangor. =D [Tiffany]
13. What is the best thing about 4?
A retard who makes everyone laughs. [Ken Tain]
14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
Test Tube! [Ben-Samuel]
15. What is the best thing about 20?
Overweight! [Tag]
16. Have you ever kiss 6?
No. Maybe in my dreams. hahaha. [Li Chi]
17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
Her horny face when i said shes horny. =D [May Kee]
18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
Monday i guess [Ken Tain]
19. How is 7 different from 6?
7 is mole-ful and 6 is mole-less. =D [Andrew & Li Chi]
20. Is 2 pretty?
Lets see.. hmm. NO [Chee Fong]
21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
Talks alot. [Vincent]
22. How did you meet 3?
The person who always bullies me during form 1. [Gerrick Ho]
23. Is 5 your best friend?
Best or good friend, she's still my one and only Calistaa. =D [Calista Tee]
24. Do you hate 12?
Why should i hate her? [Tracy]
25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
No, because im in Canada. =) [Tiffany]
26. When was the last time you saw 16?
Yesterday. [Melvin]
27. Have you been to 5's house?
Nopee. [Calista Tee]
28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
Monday morning. [Ben-Samuel]
29. Are you close to 11?
We're getting closer and closer day by day. =D [Sue May]
30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
Yeah. At least sitting with him is better than sitting with Oscar. =D [Ken Tain]
31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
Trouble? Not me though. KEN. =) [Pheobe]
32. Would you give 19 a hug?
Maybe? Depends on the situation. [Shi Hao]
33. When have you lied to 3?
Yeahh. Tons of them. =D [Gerrick Ho]
34. Is 11 good at socializing?
I think so. Shes good at flirting. =D [Sue May]
35. Do you know a secret about 8?
*Confidential* Haha. Its a secret right? [Pheobe]
36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
Er. I dont know. Maybe as normal friends? [Tracy & Tiffany]
37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
A kiddo that makes alot of noise in class. =D [Pei Shin]
39. Have you ever had a crush on 12?
Nope [Tracy]
40. How long have you known 2?
Since 2007. [Chee Fong]
41. Does 11 have any girlfriend / boyfriend?
Ask her for yourself. =) [Sue May]
42. Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
Sometimes when he pisses me off. [Kun Shen]
43. Has 21 meet your parents?
Nope. [Alcent]
44. How did you meet 11?
Classmate since 2007. Sheesh. How many of these question they want to ask? [Sue May]
45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
In didnt do it accidentally. I did it on purpose. =D [Gerrick Ho]
46.Do you live close to 7?
15 minutes by car. =) [Andrew]
47. What is 8's favourite food?
According to her blog, Chocolates. =D [Pheobe]
48. What kind of car does 1 have?
Hes too poor to own a car. =D [Kun Shen]
49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
To her restoran? [Pei Shin]
50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she / he spend it on?
Err. No idea. Wait. He should use it to buy a basketball. =D [Yik Choon]
Phew, killed my 30 minutes time. =D Oh and to all aristotles, Me and Gerrick had officially made our 3 Aristotle Class blog. Had this idea since last year but failed. So yeah. Heres the link. Or you can access it through my side bar. =)
Monday, May 11, 2009
John!
John, hes a nice guy. Just dont touch his head or make him angry. Yeap. You dont wanna mess with a Canadian, do you? Take my advice, be friendly with him. I'll ask him every single thing that happened when Im gone. So take care guys. =D
Ohh and MaeJeen, please come back. I've no idea why you've become retarded or HYPER or something. =D As for my bald picture, just scroll down to view. =)
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mae Jeen is officially retarded
And after that, look at what she said.
Shes a NIGHT STALKER. =D
Seriously, its ruined. =D
Im totaly speechless right now. -.-
Another post inspired by Mae Jeen
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Vote Vote Vote!!
Today is Wesak Day, nothing much happened but i met a TVB actor in a Wesak ceremony. I still could manage to get a picture with him. =D His name is Wong Hei. In Chinese is 王喜. Cant remember his English name though. Still i cant believe that he came here just for the Wesak ceremony. Whatever la. Lazy to continue writing. Just remember to VOTE.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Mae Jeen!!!!
INSPIRED
IAN
TO BLOG!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Im officially BALD
My mom and grandma actually disliked it. haha. Dont bother about them lar. My brother said that i looked like an alien and somehow i look like a beggar. wth. -.-
The scary thing now is my dad dont know that i've shaved my head. I wonder whats his reaction if he knows this. Haha. Maybe im gonna die if he sees this.
For now, i dont have any pictures of my bald head. Lazy to take a picture la. Want to see then see it in school tomorrow. Thats it for today.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Crap
12:38AM....
NO WAIT
12:39AM....
Should I be sleeping right now?But for me, it's kinda strange to sleep at this time. Heh. It just feels weird to sleep now. Anyway I have no idea what to do BUT to pay revenge on somebody. Hehehe.
Here goes nothing. =D
Friday, May 1, 2009
I need a break
Had some pizza and i played his Xbox. After that, i played my long lost favourite game, CS:S. Whee. Just enjoyed it so much. My mom came to fetch me around 11. I just dont wanna stop playing but what to do. -.-
My sis showed me some pics of me when i was small. Since you guys never know how i looked like, well here are some pics. =D
My 11th birthday.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Happy Birdayday Wern Kit!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Tuesday blues
We all gathered at his house around 11 then we started playing. As a normal guy, we will surely play DoTa, Xbox, PS3 and not to mention Guitar hero.
Then around 1 we went to makan. Poor andrew had to belanja us makan. =) The bill was like RM116 i guess. haha.
After that we went back and continued playing. Bla bla bla. After all that, Ben went back. So theres 3 laptops left. I was like sitting around there watching them play. Boringg~
And to gerrick, we DID our 'stuff' okay? =)
Went back around 6. Texted MayKee and LiChi but LiChi told me that LiChi and Pheobe lost their phones and money total of 500. OMG. I was like so surprised. Bloody hell pustaka kraftangan. Screw them lar.
To LiChi and Pheobe, dont be sad kay? Screw the person who stole you phones.
Man i hate this kind of lifeless people. -.-
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Blog blog blog
Its been some time since my last post. Hmm... i wonder. What should i write about. I think im gonna write about what happened yesterday. Here goes.
Yesterday, was kinda unlucky day for me. or not. We'll see later. Early in the morning, we have Art lessons. As you can see, i dislike art. I haven't finish my canvas painting. To be exact, i haven't even started painting it. hee. Well i thought i was gonna get screwed by Cik Azlina. But in the end, she didn't even care about us. haha. During art lesson, the guys were talking about dota. I just feel bored talking about dota. Strange to hear a guy bored of dota huh?
The girls were studying for sejarah test later. And i was like loitering around doing nothing. Then Oscar came to me and told me about the peteranswers.com thing. He told me how to put the answer into the question. After that, i went back and tried. It actually worked. Means everything is fake. -.-
But i still get to cheat may kee. haha. The question was 'Who does may kee likes?' And the answer came out 'Ken Tain'. She was sooo suprised and she actually believed it for a few minutes. Right MayKee? =p
p/s MayKee, do you still wanna know how i did it? hahahaha
After all those crap, me and andrew did our English oral presentation regarding halloween. I wasn't actually ready for it. But since andrew wants it to be done quickly so i'll just have to think on the spot. Even the trick-or-treat part wasnt planned at all. Heh. At least we get extra marks for that part. Teehee. =) And then we continue... bla bla bla bla bla~ and there goes our English oral presentation.
After that, we had our break and then all lessons are as usual. Last but not least, JAYA TEST. Crap. Im gonna kena jaya punishment anytime by now. =( Studied the whole night for this test. Hate you sejarah. -.- I wonder whats the Jaya Punishment? Hmm...
Okayy. Schools over. Me, Andrew, Kun Shen, Ken, Iven, Pheobe, Pei Shin and Tracy went to Segi to makan. We have to walk under the damn bloody hot sun. GOSH. And here comes the guard who asks for my IC. -.- I wonder is he gay cause he always asks for my IC. lol
Anyway, the food there was nicee. Nothing much to complain BUTT the prawns aren't FRESHH!
Pei Shin!! i got stomachache that night!! You're so gonna pay me for my medical bills!! =p
After some chit-chatting and playing and joking, we walked back to school just to support Hon Wye and Sue May's solo singing. Hon Wye sang Love Story and he looks nervous on stage. haha. Sue May's singing was niceee. Told you i was you're #1 FANN. =D
And guess what? Andrew de Souza was singing a Chinise song on stage with his guitar. LOL. I couldn't stop laughing all the time. But seriously his singing is way much better that the guy who sang the same song as him.
After the singing, it was 3.30pm. We went to 1u to get the vampire teeth and some blood. While andrew went there to get a new iPhone cover. The colour of the cover is black and red. That makes Oscar and Ken says that it looks MALAY. LOL. Racist ass. wait. Im a racist too. haha. Then they were like fooling around with his cover and they asked PS whether does it look MALAY anot. lol.
Finally, Andrews house. Guys will always do guys stuff like... playing football, swimming and not to mention, Xbox. While Pei Shin, the only girl around was kinda bored and she used andrews laptop to surf the net. And for dinner, we had Domino's pizza. Straight after dinner, we went to Bukit Utama to do some 'stuff'.
I was so tired that day. Around 10pm, everyone left. Well, i was the unlucky one. My sister was coming to fetch me from Bukit Utama but she dont know where is it. The thing is, her phone battery died. I couldn't call her and i dont know where she is. The last time i talked to her she was at centrepoint and i managed to tell her im at Bukit Utama. But still she couldnt locate where was it. -.-
Later on i have no other choice but to walk alone from Bukit Utama to Centrepoint. It took me about 10 mins walk i guess? And the roads are like sooo dark. Actually a good time and a good place to film a ghost movie. haha. Anyway, i managed to walk to Centrepoint. Then suddenly my mom called. SHe told me that my sis went to SRI KDU and her car is out of petrol AND she dont have money with her. -.- So my mom had to drive all the way to school just to give her some money for her petrol. My mom told me to wait at Centrepoint. While waiting, i went to McDonalds to have my supper. =)
At 11.30pm, my sister arrived. i was like. FINALLY. And then i got scolded from here because i gave her wrong infomation. -.- Shes the one that heard my infomation wrongly and now she blames me. -.-
Reached home at 12 at my mom scolded me also for being a troblesome. -.- It wasnt MY fault. She should have called me first before she left the house. Grr. Hate my life.
Yeah. So that concludes my Friday. Wee. finally i blogged. =)
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
OMG
Want to know how pain is it?
Try...
1) Twisting your ankle
2) Knocking your knee on the floor REAL hard
3) Having Muscle pain on your left arm
4) Drop with your plam landing. (Twice. One plam at a time)
Yeah. basically there're all injuries from sports. =(
Im suffering from all this pain now. Urghhhh.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Dead blog with a Dead Post.
Anyway i'll be doing something secret in the meantime. So please, dont ask me to update my blog anymore. Eventually, i will update it when i am free or i have something to post. yeah. If you want me to blog, why not ask ken to post a new one? since his blog is like, TOTALY dead.
p/s, Dont ask me what is the secret. I wont tell anyone. Its a secret right? =)